Listen… whoever told us that healing was this little cute Pinterest board of bubble baths, having drinks with the girls or your guys, crystals, spa, yoga, or any of that sort, they lied!
Healing is ugly crying at 2 a.m., saying “I’m fine” when you know damn well you’re not, while having random bursts of energy where you clean your entire room like your life just depends on it. It’s overthinking text, re-reading old messages, and trying not to check that person’s social media…. but you still check it (just me? Okay).
But here’s the thing…. So is a glow-up. People think a glow up is all “new everything.” And yea it’s part of it, but the real glow-up is built in those in between moments when you feel like a hot ass mess.
Because in the middle of those tears, the self doubt, the deep talks with yourself in the mirror is when your doing the work. That’s when you’re becoming the version of you that doesn’t settle, that doesn’t shrink, & doesn’t apologize for taking up space.
The truth is… one day you will wake up and realize the people, places and habits you used to run back don’t even fit you anymore. You won’t even have to force it, it will just click.
So yes… healing is messy, but so is transformation. So is leveling up. So is becoming the version of you that the old you prayed for.
You might be in your “messy middle” right now, but baby that is the part where the magic happens. Keep going.
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